Thursday, December 28, 2006


Work was interesting tonight... some man came into the the dressing room yelling at the top of his lungs for his daughter to come out (apparantly he had been waiting a while) and using a few choice words, all in this little space while I'm in it. Thought I was going to pee in my pants.

afterwords I found myself scared for the girls that were with him...I'm not saying anything bad about the guy because I have no idea who he is, i guess it's just experience. It brings back emotions.

anyways. the rest of work was alright even the phsyco holiday shoppers didn't get on my

I was out looking up earlier, and i was thinking about the greek and other ancient mythology that we associate with the stars and constalations and i was wondering....
Even though the greek strories are mysterious and interesting, Zeus nor any other greek god created them...

So what was God thinking when He created them?

OK I think i'm going to go crotchet and watch a movie.....


Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I just don't know

OK good and bad

I FINALLY found and jacket that i absolutely love.

I am going to have to return it because since I am losing weight I won't be able to wear it very long.

In a way it a good thing and I should be excited but the jacket is so fabulous.


Sunday, December 24, 2006

Watching the world go by..

Sometimes I feel like I'm missing so much with my friends and there lives...

I think I've decided not to go to Ski Invasion this year. Not because I don't want to I just feel like I need the money more.
I figure out a while back that I don't need SI for that "spiritual high" I know that I don't have to go. But it still makes a little sad cause i will miss my friends and watching them grow in Christ because I love to see that.....

So that it my decision unless God has other plans that I don't know about yet...


Tuesday, December 12, 2006

"either one of us takes the wheel or all of us take the fall..."

I just want people to see that it doesn't matter what other people are doing.

The only thing that matters is YOU and GOD

other "Christians" that are acting supercilious and silly are not being christians.
Being a christian means you are following christ. Being saved and being a christian are not the same thing.

Yes it is a must that you have to me saved by Jesus Christ but there is SO MUCH MORE to it than that. There is a relationship with the most perfect friend you could ever have.

My hear aches for people to see this.

I do apologize to you that have been put off from beginning a relationship with God because there are people that truly don't understand what it is to be a christian. I am sorry to those of you that feel betrayed by your churches and leaders.

However, I also beg you to not look at God through these people but look at Him directly.

You would be surprised at what he can do.

I am speaking this all in complete love. I mean no condemnation or disrespect by any of it. I don't even know if anyone will read this. I do pray in the name of Jesus to anyone that does read this that something good will come out of it. That God has spoken through me to you.

With all his love and blessings,


Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Rules of war

• God always speaks to your potential, not your actual.

• Whatever you know or have experienced at church, you are not prepared for what He is about to do.

• It's a brand new pioneer trail.

• Don't take the new thing and put it in your old way.

• Your frustrations are meant to drive you to God. You can only grow through frustration.

• Tension doesn't mean there is something wrong, it means there is something happening.

• He isn't going to show you everything at once, but as you go.

• It is not my anointing to take the nation, it is my anointing to train the next generation to take the nation.

• On every new level you must meet a new devil. The purpose of the devil obstacle is to give you strength and power.

• You can't go to the next level until you defeat the devil at that level. As he submits to you, you use him as your footstool to get to the next level.

• You can not take ground from the enemy if he has ground in you.

• Deliverance = one battle to get free and one battle to stay free.

• Warfare = one battle to take ground and one battle to keep ground.

• Don't be in too much of a hurry until you can keep what you've got.

• Don't let the enemy push you into a battle you are not ready for. Keep your focus on Jesus, and natural obstacles will arise because of that.

• Rest is a weapon against the enemy. He cannot penetrate your peace.

• If God isn't saying anything, go back over what He HAS said.

• If God doesn't own the creating, making and birthing of something, then He will not own the fruit of it.

• The days of grace are still here, but the days of leniency are not.

Thursday, November 9, 2006

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

What's up with that?

Some these attorney commercial make me wanna cry.

You can memorize the 10 minute opening a closing argument, but you can't memorize a 30 second shpeel for a commercial?

I mean really.

Monday, October 30, 2006


I've lost 26 Lbs. That is fantastic and I am stoked. I can do better buti am getting there :)

My meds are really sipping. I have an appointment with the doc in 2 weeks so hopefully we can get that straight. It would really be cool if god healed me one day of the ADHD. But to be honest i have some reserve about that. There are good things about ADHD.

I've also been thinking alot about this whole gay marriage law amendment thing. I'm just not sure....I just don't know if I think it is right to tell people who they can marry. I am not saying by any means that homosexuality is right, I don't think it is right. I've been asking God about it...but it's still just tossing around in my head for now.Chemistry is questionable.......
I can't stop worrying about everything that is going on.

I just feel so pshyco sometimes...
So blah-ick-ugh.....

I walked around the Gardner-Webb campus today and this overwelming feeling of intimidation came over me. It seems so far away. I've screwed up so many times over the past 3 years and I can't quit reminding myself of it. I keep thinking of this neverending cycle. Like I'm a hampster on a wheel.

"The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself." -- Mark twain


Friday, October 27, 2006

here goes

Honestly don't really want to take this chemistry test...

but i'll get over it.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Saturday, October 21, 2006


Posted by [ swauthor ] July 12th 2006 - 2:34PM Posts to date: 1970
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Some years ago on a hot summer day in south Florida, a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore.

His mother in the house was looking out the window saw the two as they got closer and closer together.

In utter fear, she ran toward the water, yelling to her son as loudly as she could.

Hearing her voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his mother. It was too late. Just as he reached her, the alligator reached him.

From the dock, the mother grabbed her little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two. The alligator was much stronger than the mother, but the mother was much too passionate to let go.

A farmer driving by heard her screams, raced from his truck, took aim and shot the alligator.

Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the little boy survived. His legs were extremely scarred by the vicious attack of the animal, and, on his arms, were deep scratches where his mother's fingernails dug into his flesh in her effort to hang on to the son she loved.

The newspaper reporter who interviewed the boy after the trauma, asked if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs.

And then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, "But look at my arms. I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my Mom wouldn't let go."

You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too--not from an alligator or anything quite so dramatic, but the scars of a painful past.

Some of those scars are unsightly and have caused us deep regret. But, some wounds, my friend, are because God has refused to let go. In the midst of your struggle, He's been there holding on to you.

The Scripture teaches that God loves you. You are a child of God. He wants to protect you and provide for you in every way. But sometimes we foolishly wade into dangerous situations. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril and we forget that the enemy is waiting to attack. That's when the tug-of-war begins--and if you have the scars of His love on your arms, be very, very grateful. He did not and will not let you go.

Sandy Warner

Haiku O' Toothbrush

Makes my mouth so clean.

Fizzy spinning on my teeth.

Then my lips go pop.


Saturday, October 14, 2006


You Are 25 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Friday, October 13, 2006


You know what?. . . . . . . . . . . .

No I won't say it.

**slap my hand please**

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

oh yea thats good...

Oranges are the best things ever.

take my word for it...I promise

Monday, October 9, 2006

When I look at them....

The stars are beautiful tonight.


"Obnoxious Olympics 2006" I have to say rocked my socks off....
Its so funny how people came up to me and said "why aren't you participating?""you should join in the fun" Well you know, I participated for 3 years I paid my dues, now I am a leader and I can feel there pain and see where there coming from.

Plus, I don't know maybe it is just me, but to see the kids reactions especially the ones who have never attended O.O. when they realize what we are asking them to do....

Its like a complete mix of facial expression: Horror, nausea, sadness, fright, excitement...... Priceless.

And yet you know they are still having fun through all the agony. I mean come on the kids are coming back year after year (and I don't thinks its the hot dog dinner.)

Wednesday, October 4, 2006

Who doze pants is?

Turkey For the girls,
Turkey for the boys,
my favorite kind of pants are corduroys.

Actuall my favorite kind are the new capris I just got. I am not one to blog about clothes but I just couldn't keep it inside.
They the best crops ever.

Friday, September 29, 2006


In all seriousness can you really trust a shoe that's called
"Jam Master PU"

I don't know maybe it's just me......

Monday, September 25, 2006


You ever wish that you couldjust get on a plane and go?
Fly to Peru or Moscow or Tibet.
It feels so far away.
A dream thats just that...a dream

Friday, September 22, 2006

They all fall down....

Your faith should not lie in religion,
your faith should not rely on a pastor,
Your faith should not lie in your family,
or a church, or a government, or a job......
These are all worldly things that will let you down

You faith should be in GOD
It's about a relationship with Him no matter what else is going on around you.

If you invest you faith in these worldly things you will yo-yo in your faith and you will never find peace. You will never be satisfied.

I can't say it enough and I pray you hear it.....


Tuesday, September 12, 2006


In the words of Brian Mcnight "I feel like a little child whos life has just begun"

I am a wide-eyed little girl craving to learn more and more.

I am Captivated.

Longing for my King.

Jesus, slip your hand in mine I want to dance close to you forever. I want you to fight for me.

Friday, September 1, 2006

Terrible recipe

Yes I have to say it I am a genius in the kitchen.

Man those pancakes were good.


Friday, August 18, 2006

It's... first day at school. yay. yipee. hooray. woo. hoo.

where's my bed?

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Where did I go?

You know what feels really good???

Being 20 pounds lighter :)

Tuesday, August 8, 2006

I miss Mayberry...

What is it about a small town that makes everything seem just a little better.
Tomatoes smell a little bit sweeter,
The flowers are a little bit brighter,
It doesn't seem quite as important to drive 5 miles over the speed limit,
It easier to just sit down and have a conversation and just talk about the weather and who is doing what in the town,
And that 107 degrees just doesn't seem quite as hot.

There is justsomething about a small town that really get to me. Don't get me wrong i know that small towns do have there quwerks and they are not always cake and ice cream still brings me ba

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Less than perfect

Death wispers words of defeat in my ear
My God I draw near, my God I draw near

God of creation here I stand
I've left babylon to find out who I am
I've traveled I've struggled I've failed in vain
My own ability will never see eternal gain
God of creation it's you whom I seek
Lord I feel strapped n tied down and my strenght is weak
Oh Lord when I cry out please hear what I speak
Bring life to my body awaken this sleep

When all vanishes and I stand in this place to face the truth for what it is
With no human esacpe to hide behind just my soul n God and I find it mind blowing
Knowin that humanity and a mere mortal man like me
Can have my slate cleaned of mistakes and the chance to put on immortality
Even though darkness has hardened us in deception and spoken otherwise
Man I refuse to take in that nonsense, and i refuse to buy into these lies
These lies of pain, these lies of shame, these lies of complete disfunction
This lie of hopelessness that will make a person feel like they're nothing
This lie that will make me feel like my struggle is one too much to fix'n
Isn't that what darkness wants for me to play the role of a victim
But I'm a child of light and no longer am I bound by slavery
I say oh death were is your sting
And oh hades where's your victory?

Hear my cry oh God
Attend to my prayer
From the end of the earth I will cry to you
When my heart's overwhelmed I will cry to you
Leave it to the rock that is higher than I
For you have been a shelter for me
I will abide in your time forever

My God I draw near, my God I draw near
--John Reuben

Monday, July 3, 2006

Goin' on down

You know one thins that can really make your day?

Getting your Insurance bill and finding out it has gone down $230....

Can anybody say YES?

Sunday, July 2, 2006

Who keeps pulling?! Oh, wait, it's me..

Knots in your stomach sip really hard especially when you know why and it isn't good.

Saturday, July 1, 2006


What is it about Honeysuckle that makes you want to be in love? I wanna bein love!!

Oh yea that's righ, I am!

I Love my Abba.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

VBS Week

Helping out at Vbs this week has really reminded me why I love kids so much....
I am not around the too much in my day to day life so sometimes i forget what it is like to be around them...I had so much funthis week I have acted like such a dork in a while, and the best part was I didn't care. Tommorrow is the last day and it stinks that I am going to have to miss it because of work. My heart will be with the kids though. I love them.