Because I said so.....

"There is no such thing as partial obedience. Only total obedience satisfies God...Just as partial obedience is an oxymoron, delayed obedience is also a contradiction in terms. To put off doing what God commands is a blatant affront to his sovereignty."
-- Blackaby ("Called to be a Leader")

That is what I say....

There's jobs up in the city I could probably drive a truck
Or I could move 300 miles from home but that would be giving up
Well you know that I ain't leaving if it's just my pride I save
I might be on the front porch or I might be in a hillside grave

This house and 90 acres, the only place I've left to stand
My roots are anchored solid, I ain't machinery I'm a man
I'll be here in the morning come pouring rain or sun

- "House and 90 Acres" Chris Knight

Just have to say...

Eleventh hour is a really good show.

"Mamma mia, here I go again"

First of all I would like to start out with how awesome God is. It is unbelievable to me sometimes the things that he does and the things that he transforms. He changes things and makes them to where you can't even tell what they were just by looking at it, yet you know exactly where it has been. Thank you Abba for you gracious and marvelous ways.

Today is gorgeous day. It is a wonderful temperature I have the doors open and the windows are up. There is a light breeze blowing and the sunshine is just pouring into the house.

So how about those elections, huh? Exciting stuff. I voted for McCain as most people I know did but he sadly did not win. I have heard so many people start to bad mouth Obama and it is rather troublesome. Obama was definitely not my first choice for president, but the fact of the matter is that he is our president-elect and will become our president. I still think that he desrves respect just like I would want people you didn't like McCain had he won the election. So many people seem to be making him out to be this evil person. I watch documentaries a good bit and I have a seen a few on Obama. From what I can see he is a good father, he is a good husband, and loves this country a great deal. Now I can't stand here and debate the issues with you and I am not a political mind, but I think that he wants the best for this country, even though we may not all agree with his version of "best". As followers of Christ the only thing that tearing down Obama will do is to further divide a nation that is already torn. The best things for us to do is to pray for Obama that God will guide him in the ways he should go and that he will allow god to guide him. God allowed Obama into the office for a reason and I for one can't wait to see what God will do next. God has not lost sight and knows what is going on.

OK now that I have that off my chest I can move on to the fun stuff...
It has been about 3 weeks since I turned in my application to Converse and I am still waiting for and answer. I want to be there so bad so I just keep praying and have styled my blog appropriately :)
Life is moving on. I was hanging out with Kara and Wayne yesterday and I really started to realize how my own and the lives of those around me are changing. We are all growing up some more. It feels and though we are make a merge into to the next stage. From young adult to Adult. God is requiring more from us and asking for even more commitment than ever before. I for one have fallen much deeper into the realization that He is all that I need, Truly. I don't need toys I don't need comfort I don't need food I don't need air. That realization in growing more and more everyday and I have truly begun to believe it.

The mascot for converse is the Valkyries. And for those that don't know, a Valkyrie is a female warrior, which I think is very appropriate. tehehe

Ok, so now I will leave you with a song, because it would not be a blog of mine with out it. The lyrics just really fit.

I've got my memories
Always inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was

I believe now
I've come too far
No I can't go back
Back to how it was

Created for a place
I've never known

This is home
Now I'm finally where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching for a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was

And I got my heart set on what happens next
I got my eyes wide it's not over yet
We are miracles and we're not alone
Yeah

And now after all my searching
After all my questions, I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home
Home

Now I know
Yeah, this is home

I've come too far
And I won't go back
Yeah, this is home

-This is Home by Switchfoot

Where was I?

There’s just two ways to lose yourself in this life
And neither way is safe
In my dreams I see visions of the future
But today we have today
And where will I find You?

In the economy of mercy
I am poor and begging man
In the currency of grace
Is where my songs begins
In the colors of Your goodness
In the scars that mark Your skin
In the currency of grace
Is where my song begins

These carbon shells
These fragile dusty frames
House canvases of souls
We are bruised and broken masterpieces
But we did not paint ourselves
And where will I find You?

Where was I when the world was made?
Where was I?

I’m lost without You here
Yes, I’m lost without You near me
I’m lost without You here
You knew my name when the world was made

-"Economy of Mercy" Switchfoot

Something Changed

Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed

Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart
In the deepest part the healing came

And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine

Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim
When a wall falls down and the light comes in

And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine

Victory is hence forth mine...

I found it, I found it, I found it!

It took me two years but I found it.

I finally found a website to buy the Leigh Henderson CD.

HAHA I AM VICTORIOUS!!

blarg

Why am i so good at ignoring things?

I am almost finished with this book I am reading then it well be on to the next one in the series...

I just love the books that you get so into that when you are not reading them you are still thinking about what is going on and what is going to happen next :-D

I know I am hopeless...haha

"Necessity is the Mother of Invention"
- Victor Hugo 1852

Oh Lordy...

I am so in a cooking mood...that always seems to happen when I clean my house and kitchen...it feels really good having a clean house. I love how the light flows in at this time of day. It always seems purer when the house is clean.

Like a child I'm gazing into wondrous grace...
Like a child I'm gazing into wondrous love

Who wants spaghetti?

....

I need more bookcases....

To Write Love On Her Arms...

They had a story tonight on the NBC Nightly news and wanted to share these Vids....

I am really really really thankful for the rain and its sounds.....I just wish my ceiling would stop leaking :(

RAWR

I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not givin' up now
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not backing down

He's calling me...

In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air and flies away
(She thanks her Jesus for) the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
And fall in His arms, and the tears will fall down and she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

Sitting silent, wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
(A great salvation through) it calls to the people
Who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
And fall in His arms, and the tears will fall down and we'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

we want to pray

It seems too easy to call You Savior
Not close enough to call you God
(So as I sit and think of) words I can mention
To show my devotion


I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You (My Heart Beats for you)
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

--Jars of Clay "Love Song for a Savior"

Forever I'll worship You.....

Wake up, and Put on your Armor....
We rush to the Battle Scene....
Fire and Brimstone we will bring to the fight
and Souls will be lifted from here to the sky
and He will descend from the clouds
Like a thief in the night

These trials seem so long...
and the days i feel are killing...
but my hands will clench to yours
when it seems like i am falling
BECAUSE YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE

Welcome, welcome
is the first thing you do to me always
When I've been so far away
And you are the best thing
That has happened to me and
Forever I'll worship You

This is the end hear it comes
This is the end that we're in
Haven't you heard haven't you

The dead will rise

AWAKE THE BRIDE

And it's such a chore for me
Just to see the world is ending

But the news paper writes and
The television screams
That this is the end
So haven't you felt the love of Christ
Haven't you felt Jehovah's Love...

One day we'll see your face...

One day... Your welcome

Welcome, welcome
is the first thing you do to me always
When I've been so far away
And you are the best thing
That has happened to me and
Forever I'll worship You

This is the end hear is comes
Haven't you heard...............

-- "Heaven Knocking, Hell Rising"
by I am Terrified

Get Get Out There!

Pray for the Outreach tonight. Pray that God moves and touches lives. I am really excited about it tonight, it has been a while since the drama team has been on stage together and it feels really good.

"Throw up your Rawk fist!"
--TFK

BTW - - We need a good concert trip soon too...yea some really awesome band.

Bland Ball

I just think that the US team could have made that basketball game just a little more exciting. Congrats on the win though.

For the love of Dogs....

So, Satan stooped really low last night. He took a big weakness and shoved it in my face and i fell for it.
Last night was my first night back to youth and It was great being back with the "kids" and seeing how much the ministry has spiritually grown over the summer. Then these 2 stray dogs showed up outside and of course I felt like I had to come to their rescue. I gave them the treats that I always keep in my trunk and did a little vet work. I even started calling the Human society and the Animal Protection Alliance to try and get them a place to stay.
Then all of a sudden I realized something Satan had succeeded in completely taking my attention off where it should have been, with the youth, and put it on something completely irrelevant. It was hard to leave them outside but I felt that God was telling to put the dogs in his hands because my ministry is with the kids and they are more important.

I don't really know why i shared this i just felt like it was a great moment where i was able to recognize an "attack" while is was happening and I did something about it, instead of just giving into it.

So here to encouragement! If you see an attack in your life do something about it don't just goo along with it. God will bless you for it!

lalala

I know I have a voice....I just don't know what it sounds like.

Stupid Soup

There's no changing things that we regret
The best that we can hope for is one more chance
If the hands of time could just move in reverse
I wouldn't make the same mistake again with her

The reasons I'm alone I know by heart
But I don't want to spend forever in the dark
I swear next time I'll hang on for dear life
If love ever gives me another try
-- Josh Turner "Another Try"

ol' blue eyes

I love that time in the morning when you pick the sleepies out of your eyes, and your eyes just feel to awake and bright afterwards.

It's amazing stuff....

It's hard to stand on shifting sand
It's hard to shine in the shawdows of the night
You can't be free, if you don't reach for help
And you can't love if you don't love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out
Cause i'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine, there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

I am strong
All because of you
I stand in Awe
Of every mountain that you move
For i am changed
Yestereday is gone
I'm am safe
From this moment on

There's no fear when the night comes round
I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent though I know it isn't true
It's the breath of Jesus is right here in this room
So take this heart of mine there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now
--Natalie Grant

"...in my Chevette, Yea."

Well I took my car in today to get the belts changed and ended up having to get my radiator flushed too. They also gave me a list of things that the car needs before too long. It going to end up costing quite a bit. Though honestly I am glad I am putting this money into the car instead of the truck. Like I always say, I loved that truck, but it was just too far gone for my budget. At least with the Camry I do see an end to all the repairs. I know that I know that I know that God gave me this car for a reason and it will not all be is vain. He knows where I am at and He knows what my needs are and he WILL provide. Just for those that are praying, I would like to get it all taken care of before this summer and then i won't have to worry about it at camp.

Oh and camp. ooh camp....I am actually...very excited about it. I have to admit that when Steve offered me the position I was hesitant I was asking for advice and hoping to get the answer I was looking for but that answer never came. Everybody said to take it. I kept "wondering" if i should take the job when the answer "Yes" kept ringing in my head. Though after I finally excepted I really thought about it, and this job is an answer to many of my prayers that I have been seeking God for. Every aspect of this job, aside from playing with kids, is out of my comfort zone. I am still scared about what this summer will bring but I am at peace with the fact I am going out there. I know that it is the right decision. So be prepared for I wont be the same when it is over. That to me is exciting.

"We're never going back to ok,
We're never going back to easy."
--The Afters

I am tenable

Can You hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ll be going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And it’s getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on it will be alright
You’re not alone

And You’ll be here forever, forever You’ll stay
And You promised to love me, You’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, You’ll love me for always
Always
--Hawk Nelson

'cause a friend's a friend forever.....

See I have this best friend named Nicki....
I have to be honest there are sometimes that i wonder if we really are best friends.

Then God comes by and says "What are you thinkin'? Who else has put up with you for this long besides yo momma?"

I love you Nicki Miller.

dada

i want to write....i just don't know what to say...blugh