Monday, October 30, 2006


I've lost 26 Lbs. That is fantastic and I am stoked. I can do better buti am getting there :)

My meds are really sipping. I have an appointment with the doc in 2 weeks so hopefully we can get that straight. It would really be cool if god healed me one day of the ADHD. But to be honest i have some reserve about that. There are good things about ADHD.

I've also been thinking alot about this whole gay marriage law amendment thing. I'm just not sure....I just don't know if I think it is right to tell people who they can marry. I am not saying by any means that homosexuality is right, I don't think it is right. I've been asking God about it...but it's still just tossing around in my head for now.Chemistry is questionable.......
I can't stop worrying about everything that is going on.

I just feel so pshyco sometimes...
So blah-ick-ugh.....

I walked around the Gardner-Webb campus today and this overwelming feeling of intimidation came over me. It seems so far away. I've screwed up so many times over the past 3 years and I can't quit reminding myself of it. I keep thinking of this neverending cycle. Like I'm a hampster on a wheel.

"The worst loneliness is not to be comfortable with yourself." -- Mark twain