Thursday, May 27, 2010


     Since I have been home I have pretty much gone picture crazy.  
     I have had this frame collage (one of those frames that is like 6 4x6's put together) for like 3 or 4 years and have never filled it up.  I finally did last week and it looks great.  It was hard to find the right pictures and at first I was putting pictures of friends and family until I decided that I just have to many pictures of both, that I love.  So I bought another frame collage for the family pictures.  After I filled them both up I still had PICTURE FEVA!  So I went through this drawer of old pictures that we have.  It has pictures from when we lives in Greenville and the first years that we lived in NC.  
     We also have some old pictures of my Dad's side of the family from the 30's and 40's.  Those are my favorite pictures to look at. One because I have always been fasciated with the early 20th century but more than that.  I think I am more drawn to those pictures because I never really got to know my dad's side of the family except for his parents, my Mamaw and Papaw.  Though, they were both gone by the time I was 9.  I kind of feel like they are, as cliche as it sound, a link to my past.  I look at those pictures and see the faces of people that I come from and share traits with.  Looking at those pictures gives some idea of what they were like and some of the things that they did in their lives.  Since I can't see my family yet, these pictures are the next best thing and I really do enjoy them.

     It is always fun to go through old pictures.  Seeing old faces and and watching how far you have come. It always bring up good memories, bad memories, and some memories you just assume forget. Pictures and Music has always been what God has used the most to get my attention.  Especially back when I had a camera and I was taking pictures all the time.  He we would always be showing me things through the pictures that I took.  I have been fighting the urge lately to go out and buy a camera.  I miss taking picture so badly!  Though I know I will get one when the time is right. God is helping me to be patient.

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Saturday, May 22, 2010

I have no doubt something has changed......

A revamped blog for a revamped life!

- I am a college senior at a college that I love and never could have imagined myself at
- My next year at that college is covered
- Plus extra money to cover almost all of my study travel
- I am about to start another year at a great summer job
- I have amazing friends & family
- I have Mom that words cannot describe her awesomeness.

- Most of all I have a Father in heaven that loves me beyond words!


I cannot believe that my first year at Converse is over.  It really flew by so fast.  It was a fabulous 9 months filled with lots of fun memories. I worked harder at Converse than I ever have in my life.  I feel like I have finally gotten into a position where I want my dream of becoming a teacher to come true no matter what.  I will not let anything or anyone stop me. It is still an intimidating thought sometimes, becoming a teacher, but the more I learn about it the more I want to do it.

This year I made many new friends. They helped me through some of the tougher times at Converse when everything was piling on top.  They were God sent and are all special to me in their own "special" way!

I also realized just what some of my best friends here at home really mean to me, especially my Mom.  Leaving home was really hard the first few months.  My new atmosphere was so completely different from the one that I was used to and way out of my comfort zone.  It sucked that I could just jump in the car and drive over to Nicki's house, run up to Village Coffee, or pop into the next room to tell Mom something exciting. whenever I wanted.  I couldn't even just pick up the phone and call!  I know that God had reason for it, ans I know that i became closer to him through all this.  I have a habit of sponging off other people faith, instead of leaping out for myself.  I definitely did more leaping this year.

I know that I could have only gotten through the last nine moths with God he has taught me a whole lot and I cannot wait to see what he has next.  He deserves all the credit for this thing, because i would be nothing without him.  I love you Abba!


Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed

Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart

In the deepest part the healing came

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine

Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim

When a wall falls down and the light comes in

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
-- Sara Groves

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