Saturday, May 22, 2010

I have no doubt something has changed......

A revamped blog for a revamped life!

- I am a college senior at a college that I love and never could have imagined myself at
- My next year at that college is covered
- Plus extra money to cover almost all of my study travel
- I am about to start another year at a great summer job
- I have amazing friends & family
- I have Mom that words cannot describe her awesomeness.

- Most of all I have a Father in heaven that loves me beyond words!


I cannot believe that my first year at Converse is over.  It really flew by so fast.  It was a fabulous 9 months filled with lots of fun memories. I worked harder at Converse than I ever have in my life.  I feel like I have finally gotten into a position where I want my dream of becoming a teacher to come true no matter what.  I will not let anything or anyone stop me. It is still an intimidating thought sometimes, becoming a teacher, but the more I learn about it the more I want to do it.

This year I made many new friends. They helped me through some of the tougher times at Converse when everything was piling on top.  They were God sent and are all special to me in their own "special" way!

I also realized just what some of my best friends here at home really mean to me, especially my Mom.  Leaving home was really hard the first few months.  My new atmosphere was so completely different from the one that I was used to and way out of my comfort zone.  It sucked that I could just jump in the car and drive over to Nicki's house, run up to Village Coffee, or pop into the next room to tell Mom something exciting. whenever I wanted.  I couldn't even just pick up the phone and call!  I know that God had reason for it, ans I know that i became closer to him through all this.  I have a habit of sponging off other people faith, instead of leaping out for myself.  I definitely did more leaping this year.

I know that I could have only gotten through the last nine moths with God he has taught me a whole lot and I cannot wait to see what he has next.  He deserves all the credit for this thing, because i would be nothing without him.  I love you Abba!


Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed

Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart

In the deepest part the healing came

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine

Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim

When a wall falls down and the light comes in

And I cannot make it

And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
-- Sara Groves

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