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Tell ya what's fun...

Talking in like 4 different accents at once

bring back these days in my mind like an eight track non-stop

That's still a yes on the Betty Ford

Still all around one of my fave vidoes had to share

all the above

Well I told God I was bored and He changed that. Now it's just the waiting. Waiting for Caroline to call about the job, that I really hope I can get. It's so tempting to just go and give Peggy my two weeks notice. Though Momma always said never count your chickens before they hatch. It also hard not to get cocky and prideful. Because I really do feel that this is a road that God is leading me down. Knowing that and then having to wait for it, just makes my attitude change to "I'm gonna be bustin' out of this joint." Doing my job the the best of my abilities becomes even harder. I want to tell people at work that I am leaving, partly because I am excited about it. Though it's also partly because I want them to be jealous of me and say ooooh and aaaaah. It's so Ironic that that in about 3 weeks time I have gone from being totally against the thought of doing things like ABA therapy to being completely set on doing it and even having to fight off the temptations that surround it. All night at work yesterday i found my thoughts going places thy shouldn't. For example Stephanie was showing me how to measure for tuxedos for the the first time in the 2 years since started working there. I kept saying to myself "oh yea great timing to start showing me this stuff" and "Why do I even need to pay attention to this?" I had to correct myself many times. But i am learning i believe that this waiting period is a test for me as well. Actually I know it is. I have been reading on being a "Lady in waiting" and controlling my thoughts instead of vice-versa is one thing that I have to work on. I can be very quiet in my speech, but when it comes to my thoughts they are very out going.

I can say though that I am feeling closer and closer to God everyday and I love it. I find myself being bolder and more willing. I was talking to Julia the other day and she was telling me about someone she has tried to witness to. I said that I hurt more now that ever not just for those that aren't saved but for those that are not living out there potential in Christ.

Well, in other news i am going to be in the market for a "new to me" vehicle pretty soon. I don't want to give up the truck, but even if i was able to pay for another vehicle with out getting some money off of it i would not be able to afford the insurance of both vehicles. So therefor it would just sit in the yard. And that would jut not be fair for a great truck such as that. I think that i am gonna for for something like a Honda or small Nissan car. So that if i do get this new job when i have to drive with kids they can be safe in a back seat. plus i just need something with better gas mileage that a truck right now.

OK so that is it for at the present time.

What's my direction?

Well, much has happened over the last couple weeks. I am heavily considering starting work in ABA therapy. In fact here in about an hour I will be on my way with Nicki to go to her clients house so that I can get my feet wet and really get a feel for what I could be doing.

ABA therapy has always been something that has scared me a bunch and therefore I have stayed as far away from it as possible. Though over the passed couple weeks since I was seriously approached about it I really have taken it into consideration. I have really thought about what the job involves and I actually worked through my fear with God instead of just shrugging it off.

I had gotten way behind on my biology. Instead of taking the losers way out i faced it and got the job done! that was a first for me.

I am now "doubting my doubts and believing my beliefs"
I am facing things in my self that I have always turned ways from and said "oh
I will deal with that later. and when I say later I mean never"

I am truly excited about where I am going and what God is showing me. He truly is amazing.

"This is the bomb that I've been waiting for living for. You finally lit the fuse that's in my head"

count em 1..2..10

How many people can say they rocked out with their Mom at a A switchfoot concert???

Goodnight

Good morningblue bird

Oh so early. Oh so little sleep. today we go to the Switchfooot but not tilll after we are awake all-day in asheville. pray for us (the drama team) at the Elida house this morning. Lot's oh warfare

Oh my.....

...God?

Back to a simpler place and food.

OK.
So its not that I don't like Hunting. I actually really don't have a problem with the activity itself. It's just something I choose not to participate in. I am thankful for those that are able to do that to provide for families and there nutrition needs.

THOUGH, I do have a problem with these hunters that go out and kill animals just because they can. They have no regard for rules and regulations, and if a population were to be extinct because of their overzealous trigger finger, the only thing that would bother them would be that they didn't have anything to do on the weekend. Never mind the fact that these are beautiful creatures of God.

Now while humans are meant to "rule" over nature, we can also have respect for it.

We as humans, including myself, waste SO much.

I think I have become some what of a Hippie over the past couple of years. Of course, minus the acid trips and such. It just amazes me the things that people will do just so they don't have to slow down. Innocent creatures get tortured just so we can have mass food intakes. Grocery stores lower the prices that they pay growers for their produce. In turn the growers have to lower the quality of the food they grow in order to be able to afford to grow it. We end up with less variety and

I don't plan on becoming a Vegan or a fruitarian or a Jainist, and I don't mean anything of this in a psycho Peta way. It's just one of my issues. I just want to make people more aware of what is happening around then. So many people some with out even knowing it buy into the "ignorance is bliss" hole. Just because something CAN be done doesn't mean that it SHOULD be done.

OK this Hunting "article" completely evolved into something else but, none the less that is a piece of my mind. Which, by the way, has NOT been chemically altered.