Saturday, August 18, 2007

"This is hard to explain. "

What is this? Like my 4th post in less than a week...i better slow down.

Well I have spent the better part of the week sorting through a lot of stuff. Emotional Spiritual and physical. Leaving camp affected me differently that i thought it would. I knew it would be sad and bittersweet leaving, but I didn't think it would take me this long to finally sort through everything. Like i said the other day I just felt so out of place and very confused. I have felt really mopey all week and even going out with friends, i tried pushing it aside, but it just wouldn't leave me alone. I finally realized that, the valley that i feel like God is leading me into, I have been treating it like God is exiling me or something.
Yesterday i felt God really telling me that. So, I pulled myself together and had God help me change my attitude. This is something that God is using to bring me closer to Him, it's not just something to do. He has a purpose and a plan.
I have been teaching my campers all summer that God will never leave you and you can always trust him to do what is best for you even though you may not see what he is doing. Now it is time for me to put that into practice. I can say i believe it but now i am going to walk it out!
I hope some of this makes sense...I'm just really writing to get stuff out. I'm still nervous about what God has for me next but I am also excited and intrigued. Students it's time to crack open the books and sharpen your pencils because we got a test today.

Just don't check me for grammar on this one.

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