Wide-eyed

In the words of Brian Mcnight "I feel like a little child whos life has just begun"

I am a wide-eyed little girl craving to learn more and more.

I am Captivated.

Longing for my King.

Jesus, slip your hand in mine I want to dance close to you forever. I want you to fight for me.

Terrible recipe

Yes I have to say it I am a genius in the kitchen.

Man those pancakes were good.

mmmmm

It's...

.....my first day at school. yay. yipee. hooray. woo. hoo.

where's my bed?

Where did I go?

You know what feels really good???

Being 20 pounds lighter :)

I miss Mayberry...

What is it about a small town that makes everything seem just a little better.
Tomatoes smell a little bit sweeter,

The flowers are a little bit brighter,

It doesn't seem quite as important to drive 5 miles over the speed limit,
It easier to just sit down and have a conversation and just talk about the weather and who is doing what in the town,
And that 107 degrees just doesn't seem quite as hot.

There is justsomething about a small town that really get to me. Don't get me wrong i know that small towns do have there quwerks and they are not always cake and ice cream but....it still brings me back.

Less than perfect

Death wispers words of defeat in my ear
My God I draw near, my God I draw near

God of creation here I stand
I've left babylon to find out who I am
I've traveled I've struggled I've failed in vain
My own ability will never see eternal gain
God of creation it's you whom I seek
Lord I feel strapped n tied down and my strenght is weak
Oh Lord when I cry out please hear what I speak
Bring life to my body awaken this sleep

When all vanishes and I stand in this place to face the truth for what it is
With no human esacpe to hide behind just my soul n God and I find it mind blowing
Knowin that humanity and a mere mortal man like me
Can have my slate cleaned of mistakes and the chance to put on immortality
Even though darkness has hardened us in deception and spoken otherwise
Man I refuse to take in that nonsense, and i refuse to buy into these lies
These lies of pain, these lies of shame, these lies of complete disfunction
This lie of hopelessness that will make a person feel like they're nothing
This lie that will make me feel like my struggle is one too much to fix'n
Isn't that what darkness wants for me to play the role of a victim
But I'm a child of light and no longer am I bound by slavery
I say oh death were is your sting
And oh hades where's your victory?

Hear my cry oh God
Attend to my prayer
From the end of the earth I will cry to you
When my heart's overwhelmed I will cry to you
Leave it to the rock that is higher than I
For you have been a shelter for me
I will abide in your time forever

My God I draw near, my God I draw near

--John Reuben

Goin' on down

You know one thins that can really make your day?

Getting your Insurance bill and finding out it has gone down $230....

Can anybody say YES?

Who keeps pulling?! Oh, wait, it's me..

Knots in your stomach sip really hard especially when you know why and it isn't good.

L-O-V-E

What is it about Honeysuckle that makes you want to be in love? I wanna bein love!!

Oh yea that's righ, I am!

I Love my Abba.

VBS Week

Helping out at Vbs this week has really reminded me why I love kids so much....
I am not around the too much in my day to day life so sometimes i forget what it is like to be around them...I had so much funthis week I have acted like such a dork in a while, and the best part was I didn't care. Tommorrow is the last day and it stinks that I am going to have to miss it because of work. My heart will be with the kids though. I love them.

My head is so mixed up these days....though in a way it makes me really excited, not that i want it to stay that way...but i know that means that Gods is mixing things up and making me think! And that is something that i have waited a long time for. This is a time when the words of one good teacher come to mind.....

"When you are down in that valley and things don't seem like they can get anyworse, remember, this shall pass....and when you are up high on that mountain and you can feel God right there beside and things are wonderful, remember, this too shall pass...." --Chris Hill

Effective Imediately

Effective immediately, please be aware that there are changes you need to make in your life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill my promises to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in this life.

1. QUIT WORRYING.
Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all our burdens and carry them for you? Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?

2. PUT IT ON THE LIST.
Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR list Put it on MY to-do list. Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can't help you until you turn it over to me. And although my to-do list is long, I am after all, God. I can take care of anything you put into my hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known I take care of a lot of things that you never even realize.

3. TRUST ME.
Once you've given your burdens to me, quit trying to take them back. Trust in me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on my list. Problem with finances? Put it on my list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster? For my sake, put it on my list. I want to help you. All you have to do is ask.

4. LEAVE IT ALONE.
Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now, I think I can handle it from here." Why do you think you are feeling stronger now? It's simple. You gave me your burdens and I'm taking care of them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don't you know that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you started? Leave them with me and forget about them. Just let me do my job.

5.TALK TO ME.
I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy. Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But there's one thing I pray you never forget. Please don't forget to talk to me OFTEN! I love you. I want to hear your voice. I want you to include me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with me. I want to be your dearest friend.

6. HAVE FAITH.
I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are. Have faith in me that I know what I'm doing. Trust me, you wouldn't want the view from my eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet your needs. You only have to trust me. Although I have a much bigger task than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple part. How hard can trust be?

7.SHARE.
You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven't heard any in such a long time. Share your tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those who have none.

8. BE PATIENT.
I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it takes me a little longer than you expect to handle something on my to-do-list? Trust in my timing, for my timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.

9. BE KIND.
Be kind to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I still love you all. Please try to get along, for my sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please know I love each of your differences.

10. LOVE YOURSELF.
As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by me for one reason only - to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God of Love. Love me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes my heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me. Don't ever forget that!

With all my heart I love you,
Your Heavenly Father

it's the little things

It's funny how the little things bring so much joy.....
Like Honey suckle

Now that is a Scripture

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own intrests, but also to the intrests of others.

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:

Who being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man he humbled himself and became obedient to death-- even death on a cross! Therefore God exhaualted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ in Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

--Phillipians 2:1-11(NIV)

self explainatory

GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!!

arg

Friends are a great thing... I am very greatful that God shose to put that relationship in our lives...

BUT SOMETIMES I JSUT FEEL LIKE HITTING THEM IN THE HEAD WITH A BASEBALL BAT!

GOD IS THERE AND HE WANTS YOU TO COME TO HIM FOR ALL THE ANSWERS...NOT JUST THE ONES YOU WANT TO NOT JUST WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT...NOT JUST THE LITTLE ONES AND NOT JUST THE BIG ONES... ALL OF THEM!

HE IS THE SOURCE OF ALL LOVE AND ANY "LOVE" THAT DOES NOT STEM FROM AND COME THROUGH HIM IS NOT LOVE AT ALL!

HE YEARNS TO SHOW YOU WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU COULD BE...YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE STUCK ANYMORE!

AND MOST ALL... HE LOVES YOU!!!!!!

He is there

"Wait for Me"
Rebecca St. James
Darling did you know that I, I dream about you,
Waiting for the look in your eyes when we meet for the first time

And Darling did you know that I, I pray about you,
Praying that you will hold on
Keep your loving eyes only for me

Because I am waiting for, praying for you, Darling
Wait for me too, wait for me as I wait for you
Because I am waiting for, praying for you, Darling
Wait for me too, wait for me as I wait for you
(Darling wait, Darling Wait)

Darling did you know I dream about life together
Knowing you will be forever.
I'll be yours and you'll be mine.
And Darling when I say, "till death do us part",
I'll mean it with all of my heart, now and always faithful to you

Now I know you may have made mistakes,
But there's forgiveness and a second chance.
So wait for me, Darling wait for me, wait for me, wait for me

Wait for me, Darling Wait
Because im waiting for you, Because im waiting for you
So wait for me, Darling wait
Wait for me

it's goin

"Fingernails"
Skillet
Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails
Under my fingernails

I’m empty, lonely, and accused
Accused without a word
My fingernails are chipping down
From clawing in the dirt
I’m so lost, lost and confused
I threw it all away
How can I be beautiful
When I am so afraid

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails
All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

I watched it all slip through my hands
My brokenness revealed
I’m so proud, I’m so proud
I’m crying to be filled
I’m killing, destroying the plague
That’s killing me away
I’ve got to live, I’ve got to love
Like I am unafraid

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails (2x)

All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

I’m wasting, wasting every moment
I want to be tasting
Tasting every moment with you
I’m suffering, I’m bleeding, on my knees
Who’s going to save me?
Suffering, bleeding
Save me from this pit of frailty

Never reaching what I want to reach
Never being who I want to be
Blaming me when I fall and fail
All my dreams splintering
Under my fingernails (2x)

All my dreams out of reach
Under my fingernails

Never reaching me

The way is there!

The Road Not Taken
Two Roads Diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down on one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And Having Perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if i should ever come back.

I shall Be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost (1916)

I don't wanna Grow up I'm a Toys R' Us Kid

My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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