I am a little bummed today. Nothing serious just was wanting to go home this weekend and can't. But to all those that I won't me seeing, FEAR NOT I am making the most of this weekend and i am going to get all the things done that need to be done. I am going to try and post stuff regularly so that I can keep you guys up on how things are going...plus it is a really great outlet. We have been doing a lot of free writing in my English Comp. class and I really like it. Basically you get out a sheet of paper and you just write and you are not allowed to stop. If you can't think of anything to write, you write "I can't think of anything to write." and you right down anything and everything that comes into your mind. It is actually very therapeutic to me. It is a great way to Journal.
Ok well I am going to get back to my essay!
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Just fall...
I can't believe that I have been here for two months. Sometimes I still feel like I have to pinch myself. God has blessed me so much with this school even through all the time i have taken things for granted in my life and threw his gifts around. He has STILL seen fit get me into a school where I can really flourish and become everything that He wants to be.
Things have gotten tough the past couple weeks. School work is picking up and midterms are here and i am really finding what my faith is made of. This week I had an epiphany. On thursday last week I felt so worried about all the school work that i had coming up. I started to feel inadequate and like I didn't have what it takes to be here to finish the job. I have worried all this week about a Midterm that I took today. There have been some aspects of the class that have been tough for me to deal with, and it was really just weighing me down. Then all of a sudden in the middle of the self-pity and worry, it hit me. One, the self-pity and worrying doesn't do any good. Two and, most importantly, God brought me here. He brought me here for a reason. He will not let me fail as long as I am doing my part and am trusting in Him. I was reminded of a line from one of my favorite movie, "Where the Red Fern Grows":
"I don't know grandpa, sometimes, I think God don't want me to have any [dogs]"
"That so? why?"
"Well, I've been askin' 'im fer dogs as long as I can remember, and nothings happened yet"
"Could be that you ain't doing your fair share."
"Well what do ya mean?"
"Well if God had a mind to he could get you dogs just as slick as cuttin' logs but, he'd be doing all the work. That wouldn't be good for your character"
"I don't want character, I want dogs"
"You want dogs bad enough billy you gonna get dogs but, if you want his help you gonna have to meet him halfway"
"Well that does that mean?"
"What does that mean?.....Well you think about it?"
Gosh i love that movie, make me want to watch it now.
Anyways....I have to do my fair share in getting what God wants for me. Part of that is having faith and not worrying and the drop of the hat. Another part is studying as much and as well as i can so that i have done everything i can and he will take care of the rest. Period. No if's and's or but's. If i am doing my part He WILL take care of it.
I love my God.
I love that he loves me so completely.
He takes and ordinary day and turns it into flowers of the months of May.
He is me obsession.
He is my escape.
There is nothing like Him.
The Sky has never been so blue.
This is home.
Things have gotten tough the past couple weeks. School work is picking up and midterms are here and i am really finding what my faith is made of. This week I had an epiphany. On thursday last week I felt so worried about all the school work that i had coming up. I started to feel inadequate and like I didn't have what it takes to be here to finish the job. I have worried all this week about a Midterm that I took today. There have been some aspects of the class that have been tough for me to deal with, and it was really just weighing me down. Then all of a sudden in the middle of the self-pity and worry, it hit me. One, the self-pity and worrying doesn't do any good. Two and, most importantly, God brought me here. He brought me here for a reason. He will not let me fail as long as I am doing my part and am trusting in Him. I was reminded of a line from one of my favorite movie, "Where the Red Fern Grows":
"I don't know grandpa, sometimes, I think God don't want me to have any [dogs]"
"That so? why?"
"Well, I've been askin' 'im fer dogs as long as I can remember, and nothings happened yet"
"Could be that you ain't doing your fair share."
"Well what do ya mean?"
"Well if God had a mind to he could get you dogs just as slick as cuttin' logs but, he'd be doing all the work. That wouldn't be good for your character"
"I don't want character, I want dogs"
"You want dogs bad enough billy you gonna get dogs but, if you want his help you gonna have to meet him halfway"
"Well that does that mean?"
"What does that mean?.....Well you think about it?"
Gosh i love that movie, make me want to watch it now.
Anyways....I have to do my fair share in getting what God wants for me. Part of that is having faith and not worrying and the drop of the hat. Another part is studying as much and as well as i can so that i have done everything i can and he will take care of the rest. Period. No if's and's or but's. If i am doing my part He WILL take care of it.
I love my God.
I love that he loves me so completely.
He takes and ordinary day and turns it into flowers of the months of May.
He is me obsession.
He is my escape.
There is nothing like Him.
The Sky has never been so blue.
This is home.
Monday, April 20, 2009
History
History is one of my favorite things to read and learn about. It is always interesting to think about how the world would be different if something had gone another way. Especially when those changes could have had a personal effect on my own life.
I was watching American Experience tonight and they are showing this series called "We Shall Remain." In a nut shell it is about the Native American and there struggle to hold on to the land. In the second episode shown tonight, there was a warrior named Tecumseh.
Tecumseh was the leader of the Shawnee tribe of Indians, that has a vision about a Indian confederacy that would encompass more than half of what we know as the United States. After the sale of 3 mil. acres of land to the American government, Tecumseh was able to rally together the leaders of several different tribes. He and the other leaders launched a campaign against the American armies, and fought for the land. When the war of 1812 started Tecumseh made an alliance with the British army to not only protect the British's Canadian interests but also help the Indians by keeping the Americans from taking any more of the land. I won't go into great detail, but the British fell through on there end of the bargain and bailed out on the Indians in the end. Though in the beginning of the campaign the Indians had real promise and it looked as though they would pull off there dreams.
It just makes me wonder what my life would look like if Tecumseh and the other leaders had succeeded. Being part Cherokee Indian that could have changed my life dramatically. This country would be very different from what is is today. I don't know those kind of thing just are so intriguing to me and my mind goes on wild tangents. I just imagine how things might have been different.
If you wanted to chech out the series:
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/amex/weshallremain/the_films/episode_2_trailer
I was watching American Experience tonight and they are showing this series called "We Shall Remain." In a nut shell it is about the Native American and there struggle to hold on to the land. In the second episode shown tonight, there was a warrior named Tecumseh.
Tecumseh was the leader of the Shawnee tribe of Indians, that has a vision about a Indian confederacy that would encompass more than half of what we know as the United States. After the sale of 3 mil. acres of land to the American government, Tecumseh was able to rally together the leaders of several different tribes. He and the other leaders launched a campaign against the American armies, and fought for the land. When the war of 1812 started Tecumseh made an alliance with the British army to not only protect the British's Canadian interests but also help the Indians by keeping the Americans from taking any more of the land. I won't go into great detail, but the British fell through on there end of the bargain and bailed out on the Indians in the end. Though in the beginning of the campaign the Indians had real promise and it looked as though they would pull off there dreams.
It just makes me wonder what my life would look like if Tecumseh and the other leaders had succeeded. Being part Cherokee Indian that could have changed my life dramatically. This country would be very different from what is is today. I don't know those kind of thing just are so intriguing to me and my mind goes on wild tangents. I just imagine how things might have been different.
If you wanted to chech out the series:
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/amex/weshallremain/the_films/episode_2_trailer
Monday, January 19, 2009
More thoughts on Organic...
I have heard a few accounts lately about organic food.
Studies show that Organic food might not be as safe as people first thought. They are saying that they are more likely to have harmful things like E. Coli and Salmonella.
But to me I think that I would rather have that and know that I am eating real food than something that is so pumped full of pesticides and hormones that you can't even tell what is real and what is not. That is just what I think about it.
**The veiws of diet.com are not necassarily the veiws of this blog**(IF you are looking at this through facebook you will need to view original post.)
Studies show that Organic food might not be as safe as people first thought. They are saying that they are more likely to have harmful things like E. Coli and Salmonella.
But to me I think that I would rather have that and know that I am eating real food than something that is so pumped full of pesticides and hormones that you can't even tell what is real and what is not. That is just what I think about it.
**The veiws of diet.com are not necassarily the veiws of this blog**(IF you are looking at this through facebook you will need to view original post.)
Friday, January 9, 2009
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Because I said so.....
"There is no such thing as partial obedience. Only total obedience satisfies God...Just as partial obedience is an oxymoron, delayed obedience is also a contradiction in terms. To put off doing what God commands is a blatant affront to his sovereignty."
-- Blackaby ("Called to be a Leader")
-- Blackaby ("Called to be a Leader")
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
That is what I say....
There's jobs up in the city I could probably drive a truck
Or I could move 300 miles from home but that would be giving up
Well you know that I ain't leaving if it's just my pride I save
I might be on the front porch or I might be in a hillside grave
This house and 90 acres, the only place I've left to stand
My roots are anchored solid, I ain't machinery I'm a man
I'll be here in the morning come pouring rain or sun
- "House and 90 Acres" Chris Knight
Thursday, November 6, 2008
"Mamma mia, here I go again"
First of all I would like to start out with how awesome God is. It is unbelievable to me sometimes the things that he does and the things that he transforms. He changes things and makes them to where you can't even tell what they were just by looking at it, yet you know exactly where it has been. Thank you Abba for you gracious and marvelous ways.
Today is gorgeous day. It is a wonderful temperature I have the doors open and the windows are up. There is a light breeze blowing and the sunshine is just pouring into the house.
So how about those elections, huh? Exciting stuff. I voted for McCain as most people I know did but he sadly did not win. I have heard so many people start to bad mouth Obama and it is rather troublesome. Obama was definitely not my first choice for president, but the fact of the matter is that he is our president-elect and will become our president. I still think that he desrves respect just like I would want people you didn't like McCain had he won the election. So many people seem to be making him out to be this evil person. I watch documentaries a good bit and I have a seen a few on Obama. From what I can see he is a good father, he is a good husband, and loves this country a great deal. Now I can't stand here and debate the issues with you and I am not a political mind, but I think that he wants the best for this country, even though we may not all agree with his version of "best". As followers of Christ the only thing that tearing down Obama will do is to further divide a nation that is already torn. The best things for us to do is to pray for Obama that God will guide him in the ways he should go and that he will allow god to guide him. God allowed Obama into the office for a reason and I for one can't wait to see what God will do next. God has not lost sight and knows what is going on.
OK now that I have that off my chest I can move on to the fun stuff...
It has been about 3 weeks since I turned in my application to Converse and I am still waiting for and answer. I want to be there so bad so I just keep praying and have styled my blog appropriately :)
Life is moving on. I was hanging out with Kara and Wayne yesterday and I really started to realize how my own and the lives of those around me are changing. We are all growing up some more. It feels and though we are make a merge into to the next stage. From young adult to Adult. God is requiring more from us and asking for even more commitment than ever before. I for one have fallen much deeper into the realization that He is all that I need, Truly. I don't need toys I don't need comfort I don't need food I don't need air. That realization in growing more and more everyday and I have truly begun to believe it.
The mascot for converse is the Valkyries. And for those that don't know, a Valkyrie is a female warrior, which I think is very appropriate. tehehe
Ok, so now I will leave you with a song, because it would not be a blog of mine with out it. The lyrics just really fit.
Today is gorgeous day. It is a wonderful temperature I have the doors open and the windows are up. There is a light breeze blowing and the sunshine is just pouring into the house.
So how about those elections, huh? Exciting stuff. I voted for McCain as most people I know did but he sadly did not win. I have heard so many people start to bad mouth Obama and it is rather troublesome. Obama was definitely not my first choice for president, but the fact of the matter is that he is our president-elect and will become our president. I still think that he desrves respect just like I would want people you didn't like McCain had he won the election. So many people seem to be making him out to be this evil person. I watch documentaries a good bit and I have a seen a few on Obama. From what I can see he is a good father, he is a good husband, and loves this country a great deal. Now I can't stand here and debate the issues with you and I am not a political mind, but I think that he wants the best for this country, even though we may not all agree with his version of "best". As followers of Christ the only thing that tearing down Obama will do is to further divide a nation that is already torn. The best things for us to do is to pray for Obama that God will guide him in the ways he should go and that he will allow god to guide him. God allowed Obama into the office for a reason and I for one can't wait to see what God will do next. God has not lost sight and knows what is going on.
It has been about 3 weeks since I turned in my application to Converse and I am still waiting for and answer. I want to be there so bad so I just keep praying and have styled my blog appropriately :)
Life is moving on. I was hanging out with Kara and Wayne yesterday and I really started to realize how my own and the lives of those around me are changing. We are all growing up some more. It feels and though we are make a merge into to the next stage. From young adult to Adult. God is requiring more from us and asking for even more commitment than ever before. I for one have fallen much deeper into the realization that He is all that I need, Truly. I don't need toys I don't need comfort I don't need food I don't need air. That realization in growing more and more everyday and I have truly begun to believe it.
The mascot for converse is the Valkyries. And for those that don't know, a Valkyrie is a female warrior, which I think is very appropriate. tehehe
Ok, so now I will leave you with a song, because it would not be a blog of mine with out it. The lyrics just really fit.
I've got my memories
Always inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
I believe now
I've come too far
No I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place
I've never known
This is home
Now I'm finally where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching for a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home
Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart set on what happens next
I got my eyes wide it's not over yet
We are miracles and we're not alone
Yeah
And now after all my searching
After all my questions, I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home
Home
Now I know
Yeah, this is home
I've come too far
And I won't go back
Yeah, this is home
-This is Home by Switchfoot
Always inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was
I believe now
I've come too far
No I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place
I've never known
This is home
Now I'm finally where I belong
Where I belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching for a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
Yeah, this is home
Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart set on what happens next
I got my eyes wide it's not over yet
We are miracles and we're not alone
Yeah
And now after all my searching
After all my questions, I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home
Home
Now I know
Yeah, this is home
I've come too far
And I won't go back
Yeah, this is home
-This is Home by Switchfoot
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Where was I?
There’s just two ways to lose yourself in this life
And neither way is safe
In my dreams I see visions of the future
But today we have today
And where will I find You?
In the economy of mercy
I am poor and begging man
In the currency of grace
Is where my songs begins
In the colors of Your goodness
In the scars that mark Your skin
In the currency of grace
Is where my song begins
These carbon shells
These fragile dusty frames
House canvases of souls
We are bruised and broken masterpieces
But we did not paint ourselves
And where will I find You?
Where was I when the world was made?
Where was I?
I’m lost without You here
Yes, I’m lost without You near me
I’m lost without You here
You knew my name when the world was made
-"Economy of Mercy" Switchfoot
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Something Changed
Something changed inside me broke wide open all spilled out
Till I had no doubt that something changed
Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart
In the deepest part the healing came
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim
When a wall falls down and the light comes in
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Till I had no doubt that something changed
Never would have believed it till I felt it in my own heart
In the deepest part the healing came
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Something so amazing in a heart so dark and dim
When a wall falls down and the light comes in
And I cannot make it
And I cannot fake it
And I can't afford it
But it's mine
Monday, September 29, 2008
Victory is hence forth mine...
I found it, I found it, I found it!
It took me two years but I found it.
I finally found a website to buy the Leigh Henderson CD.
HAHA I AM VICTORIOUS!!
It took me two years but I found it.
I finally found a website to buy the Leigh Henderson CD.
HAHA I AM VICTORIOUS!!
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Oh Lordy...
I am so in a cooking mood...that always seems to happen when I clean my house and kitchen...it feels really good having a clean house. I love how the light flows in at this time of day. It always seems purer when the house is clean.
Like a child I'm gazing into wondrous grace...
Like a child I'm gazing into wondrous love
Like a child I'm gazing into wondrous love
Who wants spaghetti?
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
To Write Love On Her Arms...
They had a story tonight on the NBC Nightly news and wanted to share these Vids....
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