ol' blue eyes

I love that time in the morning when you pick the sleepies out of your eyes, and your eyes just feel to awake and bright afterwards.

It's amazing stuff....

It's hard to stand on shifting sand
It's hard to shine in the shawdows of the night
You can't be free, if you don't reach for help
And you can't love if you don't love yourself
But there is hope when my faith runs out
Cause i'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
So take this heart of mine, there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now

I am strong
All because of you
I stand in Awe
Of every mountain that you move
For i am changed
Yestereday is gone
I'm am safe
From this moment on

There's no fear when the night comes round
I'm in better hands now

It's like the sun is shining
When the rain is pouring down
It's like my soul is flying
Though my feet are on the ground
It's like the world is silent though I know it isn't true
It's the breath of Jesus is right here in this room
So take this heart of mine there's no doubt
I'm in better hands now
--Natalie Grant

"...in my Chevette, Yea."

Well I took my car in today to get the belts changed and ended up having to get my radiator flushed too. They also gave me a list of things that the car needs before too long. It going to end up costing quite a bit. Though honestly I am glad I am putting this money into the car instead of the truck. Like I always say, I loved that truck, but it was just too far gone for my budget. At least with the Camry I do see an end to all the repairs. I know that I know that I know that God gave me this car for a reason and it will not all be is vain. He knows where I am at and He knows what my needs are and he WILL provide. Just for those that are praying, I would like to get it all taken care of before this summer and then i won't have to worry about it at camp.

Oh and camp. ooh camp....I am actually...very excited about it. I have to admit that when Steve offered me the position I was hesitant I was asking for advice and hoping to get the answer I was looking for but that answer never came. Everybody said to take it. I kept "wondering" if i should take the job when the answer "Yes" kept ringing in my head. Though after I finally excepted I really thought about it, and this job is an answer to many of my prayers that I have been seeking God for. Every aspect of this job, aside from playing with kids, is out of my comfort zone. I am still scared about what this summer will bring but I am at peace with the fact I am going out there. I know that it is the right decision. So be prepared for I wont be the same when it is over. That to me is exciting.

"We're never going back to ok,
We're never going back to easy."
--The Afters

I am tenable

Can You hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ll be going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And it’s getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on it will be alright
You’re not alone

And You’ll be here forever, forever You’ll stay
And You promised to love me, You’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, You’ll love me for always
Always
--Hawk Nelson

'cause a friend's a friend forever.....

See I have this best friend named Nicki....
I have to be honest there are sometimes that i wonder if we really are best friends.

Then God comes by and says "What are you thinkin'? Who else has put up with you for this long besides yo momma?"

I love you Nicki Miller.

dada

i want to write....i just don't know what to say...blugh

Quiz day

What Kristen Means

K is for Keen R is for Remarkable I is for Impressive S is for Silky T is for Tame E is for Exuberant N is for Normal

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Native American Name Is...

Anevay Namid Your name means: Superior Star Dancer

What's Your Native American Name?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Supportive

You are almost like a life coach for your best friends. You give them help when they need it... but you also know when to give them a push. People tend to rely on you for moral support and advice. You've probably always been mature for your age, so this is a role that's you're comfortable with. A friend like you is one of the rarest kinds. You are both a good mentor and companion. Your friends need you most when: They are confused or worried You really can't be friends with: Someone who only wants to complain Your friendship quote: "The only way to have a friend is to be one."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

You Are 64% Lady

Overall, you are a refined lady with excellent manners. But you also know when to relax and not get too serious about etiquette

Are You A Lady?

Your Movie Buff Quotient: 44%

You are well on your way to becoming a movie buff. You've seen many of the great films, and you have even probably developed an expertise in a few genres.

Are You a Movie Buff?

What The Holidays Mean to You

For you, the holidays are about emotional connections and bonds. You are happiest being around those you love. You celebrate the holidays in a minimalist style. You are likely to only give one great present and decorate your house with a few special items. During the holidays, you like to feel cozy and comfortable. You're happy to stay inside with a roaring fire and a warm drink. You think the holidays should be comforting and relaxing. You don't like the holiday rush... you just like the simple pleasure of the holidays. Your favorite holiday memories strongly evoke your senses. You are vividly aware of all the tastes, smells, and sounds of the holidays.

What Do the Holidays Mean to You?

Your Travel Personality Is: The Adventurer

For you, travel is how you learn about the world. And you like to learn the stuff that's not in guidebooks. You truly have wanderlust. When you're not traveling, you're dreaming about where you'll go next. And your travels are truly legendary - they leave you with stories you'll be telling for the rest of your life!

What's Your Travel Personality?

I love my best friend

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Prairie days have gone away leaving us in disarray
Fancy cars and credit cards have taken the world
The world by large, Sad but true the only view of
the world is not so true, is not so true
Would you believe it if you saw it or would you take
it for what it is
When I see the sun I see a solar-centered symphony
rising on creation found by only one, It’s not hard to see
that we could be the ones to make the world believe
We are so far we need the world to cater to our every need
Generation to generation conversations about the right
Religion but desperate are we that we try to seek
everything but peace and restoration
We’ve got a purpose, it’s all around us but Hollywood
Has got their opinions
When I see the sun I see a solar-centered symphony
rising on creation found by only one, It’s not hard to see
that we could be the ones to make the world believe
we are so far we need the world to cater to our every need
So get up, get up, get up, get up and get out
(Out of the box give it up, you’ve got to give it up)
Get up, get up, get up, get up and get out
(Out of the box give it up, you’ve got to give it up)
When I see the sun I see a solar-centered symphony
Rising on...

Upside Down

Who's to say what's impossible?
Well, they forgot this world keeps spinnin'
And with each new day, I can feel a change in everything.
And as the surface breaks, reflections fade,
but in some ways they remain the same.
And as my mind begins to spread its wings,
there's no stopping curiosity.

I want to turn the whole thing upside down.
I'll find the things they say just can't be found.
I'll share this love I find with everyone.
We'll sing and dance to mother nature's songs.
I don't want this feeling to go away.

Who's to say I can't do everything?
Well, I can try.
And as I roll along I begin to find
Things aren't always just what they seem

I want to turn the whole thing upside down.
I'll find the things they say just can't be found.
I'll share this love I find with everyone.
We'll sing and dance to mother nature's songs.

This world keeps spinnin' and there's no time to waste
Well it all keeps spinnin', spinnin', 'round and 'round and

Upside down, who's to say what's impossible and can't be found?
I don't want this feeling to go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Please don't go away
Is this how it's supposed to be?
Is this how it's supposed to be? 

The only way to Play...

You know the only thing more fun than playing capture the flag in a skirt?......
Playing Ultimate Frisbee in a skirt.

So I just, for some reason, on a spurt of the moment whim, went to Wal-mart, spent $21, and bought a bookshelf for my room that I most definitely do not have the money for.

Do you ever just get that feeling that you just need a change? Lighten things up a bit? Well this is what led to my spontaneous purchase. I was just ready to get my old desk out of my room. It just so dark and it's huge and bulky and I was just getting tired of it especially since I don't even use it as a desk. The only part I use is the shelves for my books, which is the reason I have not already put the desk away, since I would have nowhere to put my library. Then I had an epiphany! Get a Bookshelf to put the books on...so just like me I could not wait till the morning to go to Wal-mart to see what they had.

This will give me more space and give the illusion of a slightly bigger room, as well as make everything look more sunny. Plus as an added bonus now I have an excuse to get my computer out of my room since I don't like it in there anyways. I think that the shelves will look quite nice in my room.

See this is why I need a job because I have WAY to much time on my hand...lol


Well, I think I will retire now to my boudoir, for some much needed beauty rest.

"Although I knew"

Having to end friendships really really stinks.

"Dancin' in the moonlight"

The lunar Eclipse just as expected was beautiful. I had a perfect view right from my porch. Though I do have to say that this one wasn't quite as cool as the last one, it was none the less spectacular.
That added with a little Mad Red tea (with cinnamon I might add) and some graham crackers for breakfast. I have to say it was a pretty great morning. I think the only thing that would have made it even more perfect is a Chai tea latte from Starbucks. Yea that would have done it.

After the moon was completely eclipsed it disappeared, so i just spent the rest of the time taking pictures of myself! Imagine that! I will post those later. For now i think i will be heading back to bed still have a couple hours 'for my day starts!

Dah da dah

I made Sun Tea today...oh will that be sweetness to my lips this afternoon....It's still cooling off in the fridge. It'll me worth the wait.
Mom is making gumbo today. Well it a gumboesque concoction. Though it promises to be very tasty none the less. I started another book today...it's my third one since I have been home. It has been nice to be able to do almost nothing but read all day....most of the time. Though i have to say i am really ready to get back to a job.

"You are loved by God and have his full backing"

This is a word that God gave my friend Brendon and I just wanted to share it with everyone:

As a priest of God in Jesus Christ, I have the authority to speak blessing over people. Just as Isaac blessed his sons, so do I have the authority to bless sons and daughters of God in Jesus Christ.

There is life (and death) in the power of my tongue.
A soft answer will turn away wrath.
I may speak a word in due season and it will be good.
Blessings (and cursing) proceed out of my mouth.

I declare that you are a son/daughter of God in Jesus Christ. God knew you before you were born, before the world began, before the very foundation of the world. While you were being formed in your mothers’ womb, God saw and knew you.

You have been begotten by the Gospel. You are a new creature in Jesus Christ. Your sins are forgiven, your record erased and the old man is dead. You are born again of the Spirit and Water, you have the Word of God growing in your heart and you have the mind of Christ.

You are accepted in the beloved, part of a fully functioning body unified by His presence and the love shed abroad in your heart. You are looked over by a great cloud of witnesses, you are loved by God and you have His full backing. He will never leave you or forsake you, as you stand in battle, He will fight for you. He, Jesus Christ, is the same yesterday, today and forever, He will be with you until the end.

God has anointed you to do what He has called you do to do and be who He has called you to be. You are blessed with every spiritual blessing and have all things that pertain to life and godliness. You have unction from the Holy One and know all things. You ask, believing in your heart and you receive. As you hear and obey the Word of God, you are like a wise man who built his house on the rock, and when the storm came, and the wind blew the house stood strong. As you speak the truth in love, you will grow.

You have been given the ministry of reconciliation and are an able minister of the New Testament. Just like me, you are a King and Priest in the Kingdom of our God. You are a Priest in the order of Melchizidec, ministering in Peace, Righteousness and the power of an endless life.

Through your knowledge of Jesus Christ, you have eternal, everlasting and abundant life. You will not partake of the second death; you will not taste the victory of death or the sting of the grave. You will be raised up in the last days and enter into the glory of the Promise Land, the Heavenly City called Jerusalem, the Mother of us all.

Boredom is Bliss? **This is my 100th post!**

Learn 50 things about your friends, and let them learn 50 things about you!

1. Do you like cheese?
yes

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No

3. Do you own a bicycle?
Not right now

4. What did you do tonight?
I went to bible study then came home and talked to Brendon

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
No

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
It just depends Most of the time i like them

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
"Santa Baby" Eartha Kitt

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
OJ

9. Can you do push ups?
sure, but how many? that's the question

10. Is your bathroom clean?
Mostly

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
My great grandmother's seed pearl Necklace and my grandmothers diamond ring

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite (preferred) sex?
Sorry i don't lure

14. Do you have friends?
yes

15. Do you miss someone?
Yes

16. Middle name?
Leah

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
* I wish there was something i could do for Brendon
* Stark is good
* Geez my feet are cold

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought.
* White Zinfandel
* Electricity
* Part of my car

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
*Water
*Lemonade
*Hot tea

20. Current worry:
Not really anything :)

21. Current hate?


22. Favorite place to be in your city/town?
Driving on the back roads

23. How did you bring in the New Year?
With most of my extended family in Columbia

24. Where would you like to go?
Anywhere over seas

25. Are you hungry?
No am full....good fried chicken

26. What made you laugh last?
I think it was something Sean said

27. Do you own slippers?
Yes but i never wear them

28. What shirt are you wearing?
A pastel green one

29. Do you burn or tan?
Depends

30. Favorite color?
Yellow

31. Would you be a pirate?
Nope....unless that is the theme at SMCC next year and i go back :)

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
David Cassidy :)

33. What did you have for lunch?
"Chinese"

34. Name someone who has changed your life.
Jesus

35. What's in your pocket right now?
Hair clips

36. Something you can't wait for?
Get a Job

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
I had some with "The Lion King" stuff on it

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Broke my arm when i was like 4

39. What is your biggest pet peeve?
Gossip

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Nicki

42. who is your quietest friend?
Kara...

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
not that I am aware of

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?
No because there is not such thing as a "shooting star" :) Anyways i just go straight to the source

45. What is your favorite movie?
The Little Mermaid

46. What is your favorite candy?
Skittles

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
"When did you fall in Love with me" -- Chris Rice
"I feel Fine" James Taylor

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
"Ain't no sunshine" --Bill Withers.....haha

49. What were you doing at 12 AM last night?
Sleeping

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
I meant to get up earlier than this.

"This is hard to explain. "

What is this? Like my 4th post in less than a week...i better slow down.

Well I have spent the better part of the week sorting through a lot of stuff. Emotional Spiritual and physical. Leaving camp affected me differently that i thought it would. I knew it would be sad and bittersweet leaving, but I didn't think it would take me this long to finally sort through everything. Like i said the other day I just felt so out of place and very confused. I have felt really mopey all week and even going out with friends, i tried pushing it aside, but it just wouldn't leave me alone. I finally realized that, the valley that i feel like God is leading me into, I have been treating it like God is exiling me or something.
Yesterday i felt God really telling me that. So, I pulled myself together and had God help me change my attitude. This is something that God is using to bring me closer to Him, it's not just something to do. He has a purpose and a plan.
I have been teaching my campers all summer that God will never leave you and you can always trust him to do what is best for you even though you may not see what he is doing. Now it is time for me to put that into practice. I can say i believe it but now i am going to walk it out!
I hope some of this makes sense...I'm just really writing to get stuff out. I'm still nervous about what God has for me next but I am also excited and intrigued. Students it's time to crack open the books and sharpen your pencils because we got a test today.

Just don't check me for grammar on this one.

aawww shucks guys......

Thank you everyone that wrote me notes this summer. They were very encouraging and usually came at the perfect moment, which is thanks to you know who!

I Just finished putting them all in my rememberance book. It took some maneuvering but I got them all in there.

give me a break

David Letterman couldn't possibly get any dum.......ok i was wrong!

Good night

Job

Pray.......

I Have an Interview tomorrow with Parkway Behavioral Health @ 12:00. If i get the job I will be working with kids that have behavioral problems in school and they need a one-on-one. I'm not sure if this is where God wants me yet.
I do have another job pending as a receptionist at East Middle School. I think that I would enjoy doing either one I just really want to be where God wants me.

Thanks everyone!